Early morning thoughts

So I've had 0 sleep. I'm irritated angry anxious because it's been disturbance from my dad. A huge kapow in the floor and him running his drunken mouth on mom. Sure also my insomnia is partly my fault I guess but he is the biggest part of it. What the Fu*k is wrong with him? Mom said that yesterday him what's wrong with you? This is really getting old. It's 5 am and I've had 0 sleep i might've had a little too much caffeine but those huge disturbances are no help. This has gone on for near 2 weeks it's Feb 10 2022 it started Jan 29th. What the hell is wrong with him? I'm tired not having any peace here and constant fighting at certain times. You can't say hardly anything to him he's always right and will condemn you and act sour especially if you mention truth about him. What happened yesterday was uncalled for him waking up cussing mom. I need a ticket out of here. I've suffered enough of his bullsh!t. Funny he don't like being around a drunk himself yet he's the worst one I've ever known. He won't seek help or try to stop. When we move I doubt our neighbors are going to tolerate his belligerent unruly behavior. Why mom does idk. I feel for the poor woman she suffers with a knee issue and has to put up with his bullsh!t. Ignorant sob. When's his karma gonna come.? His parents didn't make him suffer emotionally and mentally like this. They weren't drunks. They were hard working people until they got issues but still weren't raging drunks. Grandma went to church for awhile grandpa messed with horses until and owned a mine company until his colon burst. Then he had to let all that go. Anyway they didn't cause their children huge amounts of mental anguish stress and emotional anguish. Grow the fvck up dad. We shouldn't have to deal with this every month. Mom shouldve thrown you out long ago. I need rest physically and emotionally. Sigh. Give me a break.

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