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I met this guy 2 years ago. We started hanging out, doing crazy stuff together, riding around, drinking, chilling at home, listening to music and dancing till morning, swimming late at night, planning a trip late at night, and going somewhere far. The first time I met him I already liked him, I have this crazy feeling inside me that got curious. I never date a guy like him. We are two different people. I'm just a shy woman that works and goes straight to my apartment after. Sometimes during my free time, I just continue to work since I'm new to the city and don't know anyone aside from my workmates. While he is the kind of person that very socialize, had a big group of friends, is very vocal, and always goes to parties and night outs. We started hanging out 4th quarter of 2020. My father died after My birthday. So I went home for his funeral. It was hard for us since everything was so strict at that time because of COVID-19. After a week I went back to the city. I was alone, I cry all the time. It was December and I was alone in my apartment. Everyone went home for Christmas, except me since I can't go back home because of COVID-19 because our place is on the other island and you have to have a valid reason or emergency before they will let you in. So I stayed in the city and on December 24th in the evening he messages me, asking what will be my plan for Christmas, I said to him I will spend it alone since I can't go home. He then invited me to hang out with him. I got excited and was looking at what outfit to wear. I put on my white jeans, white crop top, and gold heels. I was so nervous at the same time because I haven't seen him for weeks.
I went to his apartment, we drink a little or just me since he can drink a bottle of vodka without getting drunk. And we took a pill. I was so sad and depressed but once I took a zip and took a pill I started to feel better. As I said I was a shy person right, it's hard for me to communicate or socialize with other people, but that night I was a completely opposite person. I never felt so happy that night, talking with different people, laughing, dancing. It was AWESOME! Fast forward I spend the new year with him also and we had a great time together. Around January he had to go to Manila for a month because he got in trouble and need to leave. I was stuck again. But got inspired since he's not that far. So I work and we continue to communicate online. I met new friends, and I met this girl. We, scuba dive, go to the club and went on a trip together.
February on valentine's day, I was in my room and on the phone talking with him. I confess my feelings to him and so did he. I was in cloud nine that time. So he made it official. We became boyfriend and girlfriend.
I went out with my 2 girls that night and spend the rest of everything with them.
March he came back and I was so happy to see him. We had our first dinner together as a couple. He bought us matching sneakers and we wore them for that night. Fast forward, it was a great time, I work and during my rest day I came to his place and he hang out the whole day. He visit in my office when he misses him brought me a coffee or he will wait till lunch time and we go eat lunch together.
I was still grieving from time to time. There's a time I just cried the whole time, and I can't function anymore, every time I talk to our clients I just completely froze and cry. I wasn't happy in my job anymore. So he offers to stay with him and quit my job. I quit My job and my sister was so sad because of that. Since I'm the only person she trusts in her company.
I move in with my 2nd quarter in 2021, we spend more time together, I felt good. We go out every weekends or ride far during his free time. We do crazy and silly things together. Drink and dance the whole night in our house or ride our motorcycle while we are both drunk. We watched movies and cuddle in the couch while eating ice cream or a big pot of spicy noodles. Make sadwich together or i cook him his favorites soup, the squash soup. He cook breakfast for me and greated me with kisses. We go to different restaurants and tried and discover different dish. But after a month or two I got sad again because I don't have work. I couldn't find a job. Been searching and still no luck. I also saw his different side, he's a germaphobic person, he hates ants so he gets frustrated easily. And as a chill person, I tried to understand him since I'm used to ants and insects when you're in a tropical country. I discover he got short-tempered,(so am I) get easily mad with drivers and delivery guys, I tried to understand also since he's dealing with his personal problems about his son and his ex. But you know as a woman that's sometimes I get mad also when he gets mad. So we had arguments from time to time but we still love each other. I'm an open person, like when we go out and party I'm okay if there's a girl who will dance around him or talk to him as long as he knows his limitation. And he didn't know, he took it in a wrong way, so one night we're both drunk he invited a hooker in our house to dance and I started feeling sick and jealous since he tried to kiss and touch the private part of the girl. I pretend that I'm sleeping on the couch while they are next to me. I couldn't take it anymore so I went to the room and slept. After a while, the girl went home. He was on the couch messaging the girl. I went to the table where his laptop was open and his messenger. He was messaging the hooker to have sex with him. I feel numb at that time. I couldn't get mad at him. But started questioning myself if what I did wrong or if I am not enough, I get up and took a glass of water and splash all over him. I was just numb. He was so drunk also. I started crying and asking him what is it all about. He said he was too drunk wasn't aware of the mistake he did. I was just crying and went upstairs, he keep saying sorry, looking at him crying I felt sad, I don't want to hurt him, I don't want to see him crying. He can't breathe also because he's crying a lot so I hug him and told him we will just forget about it and sleep. Since then our relationship has become a roller coaster, there's a time it's up, there's a time it's down. But I always love him and so he did. Last quarter of 2021 our relationship went down, we always argued and broke up around August, I don't have work so I rented the cheapest apartment. I was so devastated, I miss him 24 hours. In October we started talking again, on my birthday we went to Manila to celebrate it. He just gave me the best birthday ever. It was intimate. Just me and him. We started dating again. Well it's on an off relationship
Last December 2021 there was a strong typhoon coming. We didn't expect it to be that strong so we didn't even prepare, we were at home that time chilling and watching Netflix. When the Strom was coming, the electricity went off, and the wind became stronger. In our bedroom, the window got wrecked and the roof was destroyed. He move the couch to the kitchen where the safest place, we cuddle there till I fell asleep.
The next morning the water stop working, no electricity, almost all the houses, and properties got destroyed, hard to drive on the road since a lot of posts and trees fell on the ground and blocked the road. No water, no food, no cash so we work together and find ways. We were looking for a hotel the next day but each was fully booked or got destroyed by the typhoon. We were running out of gas and the gas station line was so long, it will take you a day before you get your turn. He booked a flight to Manila to escape from that disaster but the airlines keep canceling and moving our flights. We were running out of water and food. So we don't have a choice but to wash our bodies with a bottle of water. We went to the city and looked for food , walked hangry, and went to the mall for a grocery but the mall won't accept cards, we don't have cash so we went to the other grocery store hoping they will accept cash. We got lucky, we were so hungry and thirsty, we ate a roasted chicken and a big bottle of coke. I got a key to my sister's apartment so we walk back there and stayed there for the night. The next day we went to his friend's hotel to check if there was availability, we were also looking for a grab to take us to the other island. We got lucky and got a grab and went to the other island. After all the trials and sacrifice a beautiful relaxing beach resort welcome us. We spend Christmas there. . on our 7th day we had an argument, so we didn't talk for a day or two. We went back to the city the next day, I was supposed to go back home after that and he will go to Manila after a couple of days. but then it was already late for me to travel to another island and might end up stuck in a port and spend my new year alone. So we decided to spend the new year together with our friends. It was fun!
The next day we woke up super late so I stayed another night with him. On the 2nd day of January 2022, I suppose to go home alone but we couldn't help but miss each other so we ended up going home to my place together. We book a van and got all our stuff in our home and traveled for 6 hours. We arrive on the other island and he books a beautiful hotel. The next day we went looking for a new house to stay in but it was raining badly and we got sick since we don't have enough rest for 2 weeks already. After a couple of days, we got better and got an Airbnb house. We stayed there a month and move to another house. It is beautiful with a pool and a beautiful relaxing garden. I couldn't ask for more. I always think of God for everything. Even though I don't have a job but my depression becomes better. He bought us bikes so we bike together, chill and swim in our pool. We celebrated our first year anniversary in that house on February 14, 2022. He surprised me with a morning sweetness. He's the sweetest guy and the perfect guy for me. We might argue all the time and I don't care because I love him and his flaws. He always makes sure I am okay when I'm sad.
We got into trouble a lot of times and face it together, all the trials and difficulties, we face it holding hands. When I'm sad he buys me ice cream, and buys the best coffee for me because coffee makes me happy.
One day we went for a road trip and ended up booking in a remote place. We got into trouble and ended up in a police station the next day but good thing we didn't do anything, it was the Owner of the resort beat him up because they couldn't accept that they were wrong and was scared that we may leave a bad review and post that video we took. And we will never post videos like that. I was shaking that time because I had never been to a police station in my entire life. But we held hands and got thru it. We went home after and drink wine and cuddled.
He lost his job 2 months ago. The boss didn't fire him he just left because his boss was just crazy. He had to do everything for his boss and have to explain everything to him .. he can't handle the stress so he resigned. He was stressed after that since he hadn't got a job since then. He's been applying for 2 months now and no luck. We went for a little getaway, we went to Bohol and wanted to forget the problems, but after our 5 days trip, he become distant to me. When we got home he barely talk to me. I'm so heartbroken. I know he's stressed because he doesn't have a job. But I didn't know that his money is running out and his unemployment money stops. The next day he was still cold and told me he couldn't take this relationship anymore. I was devastated, so I packed my stuff and went to my mother's place. I was crying and wondering why. He's the center of my life. I was crying the whole time. I block him on all my social media and deleted my WhatsApp. Then he emailed me, he said it's better this way since he doesn't have a choice but to go back to the US because he doesn't have money anymore. He wants me to hate him so I could move on fast. I couldn't hate him I love him so deeply. I feel shit because I couldn't even find a job. Been searching and applying but I don't have luck. So I only do part-time for my sister, designing her cards and shirt for her Etsy.
We've been Thru a lot of things, fighting together, but right now the universe already decided to tear us apart. In a couple of weeks, he will have to go back home. And it's hurting both of us. Every time I think about it I cry. Living a life without him. I couldn't even spend time with him since he decided we should get used to not seeing each other till he leave because it might be hard for both of us. We didn't even know when will he can come back. Maybe a year or two. I pray to God every day, every time because I couldn't handle a life without him. He may be not perfect but he's the best man I've ever had. Now I'm just counting the days before he will completely leave on April 2022. It feels like there's a sharp knife in my chest. Every day passed by, is also adding a knife to my chest. I miss him every second. I think of him all the time. And I don't know what to do now. I'm trying to find a job as of this moment but I cry every now and then. I couldn't stop the pain. And so he is.
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Make sure that you know where he is in the US and when you get a job start saving for your plane fare. Then if he doesn't come back to you you can go to him and then he should realize how much you love and want him.
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