I wish I didn't need fixing

I was built wrong in so many ways. But I choose most to focus on the obscure, so I can hope to ignore the obvious. Not many people have this same struggle, I don’t think. I can’t always tell what's real.

I’ll wake from a dream, questioning if it was reality or fiction. I’ll see something and wonder 'is this the truth, is this real? Am I dreaming again?' I’ll have conversations with people and later have to reason with myself that they really happened.

There are more simple things too that could easily just be me losing my mind, going insane. Sometimes I forget cars have drivers, cars aren’t alive; they aren't the ones going places, the people inside them are. If I stare too long at the ground, it bubbles or shies away from me. When listening to people talk and I can’t hear them well or there's too much background noise, I’ll look down, searching for subtitles.

I think I really am messed up, incorrect. Why can't my brain get one simple thing right for me? Just this once..