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Am I insane?
4 months ago · · obsession, · Explicit
I feel crazy. I get so attached easily, and I'm still young. I wouldn't be afraid to hurt someone over someone I'm obsessed with. That makes me think back when I was 6 or something, when I used to watch those yandere sim stuff and back when I was 10 when I had that Gacha phase and think killing Gacha ocs I had that touched my 'bad boy bf' was cool. Like, I even called myself YandereYT or something, idk but it had yandere in the name somewhere. But now, I wouldn't really kill anyone but like I would kind of hurt someone over someone I'm attached to. I remember the other day, my guy friend was teasing my friend that's a girl, and mind you, I LOVE her. She was and is always there for me, she makes me happy and all that. It kinda pissed me off because I could tell, even if he was teasing, she wanted him to stop and kinda shut up. So I punched him and kicked him in the yk spot. Now, I'm not sure if that's all that bad, but I could've lived on just not doing that, yk? Even when I fall in love with someone, I would always-- sometimes, daydream about beating the hell out of whoever hurts my loved one. I would even go as far as killing anyone for my little brother, of course. I would kill whoever the hell severely hurts anyone I love, or am attached to. I even go as far as finding someone's address, it makes me know that I'm not normal. I just don't understand myself. If I found someone I truly love, it's like my life is based on them, if I'm obsessed enough. What I mean by that is, that I would let them control me and my life. They could choose what and when I eat, when or if I go to bed, and idk. Maybe, that's only if I'm obsessed enough. The minimum is I would never leave them alone, and they could choose what we do together. I think I'm insane, when I get attached, I'm just SO obsessed...I just want them all to myself. But I wouldn't want to hurt them.