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Today was my birthday. For some reason I can’t help but feel more depressed than ever. It’s a slap in the face to realize you have no one to go out with on your birthday. The last 6 or so birthdays I’ve had have been this way maybe even more. I really appreciate my family, they try their best to make me feel like I’m not a loser. I mean does anyone here know how emasculating it feels to be a virgin at 25? To have zero friends? Every day I wake up and just wonder how the fuck I let this happen. Birthdays are a true reminder of how short life is. It makes me think on everything I don’t have in my life that I really should at this point. I can’t even explain the deep agonizing depression I feel inside every moment. It’s so horrible. It’s like your possessed by darkness and you aren’t actually able to feel good in any way. You hope, you try, you repeatedly fall, get back up, then use the little strength you feel you have left just to get shoved down again. It is an endless cycle. In between all you know how to do is hide and let the darkness consume what little bit of hope you might have left. That is the best way I can describe this feeling. This is the way I have felt for many years. I used to think people that commit suicide were weak. I can honestly understand why they made the decision. It’s this mental illness you can’t shake. No medication, counselor, or therapist can ever cure/understand. I strongly believe everyone’s depression feels different. For some maybe it’s just a short spell due to a recent tragedy. Maybe you have an off day. For some like me, it consumes your life. It takes you down to such a deep place in your mind, such a terrible place. A place where only negativity exists. There is not even a possibility of a positive. It’s just the way your brain works.
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Happy Birthday!!! I have birthdays alone and I look forward to them because I go to the casino as many other people do on their birthdays. Make an outing for yourself on your birthdays. Feeling sorry for yourself brings on and continues depression so don't do that. Do things that you like and enjoy and don't dwell on yourself. Do everything you can to lift yourself out of the depression.
ReplyHappy Birthday to you! As an introvert myself, I would be the happiest and make you the happiest as well if we ever hang out. But, being alone doesn't mean you can't have fun. Eat out everything you want and do anything fun alone. I really wish you the happiest birthday once again, and I truly believe your next birthday is going to be a lot of fun. The best are yet to come ;)
ReplyToday is a special day because it is your birthday. Try to do things that you enjoy or love. Look on the bright side. Don't be drawn to things you don't have or haven't experienced yet. It will happen someday. Stay safe! Happy Birthday!!!
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