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For the past year I’ve been struggling so much. So much has happened, but a big impact is school and how rubbish it is for me and how I’m struggling so much. I feel like I don’t fit in anywhere. I’ve moved schools 2 times (1st time was to a new school and the 2nd time was to my old school which I first started in) and yet I’ve felt more out of place in the school I literally just moved back to (the school I started it) rather than the other school. Yes, you might think it’s foolish moving back to the first school I originally moved from, but it was hard making friends in the other school. I wonder if it’s because of the way I look? Because I’m fatter than the other girls in my class maybe? Maybe it’s because I’m the new kid and they think I’m weird? I don’t know anymore. I’ve just felt so out of place and school is the most hated place for me right now. But I can’t confess or talk about it. I’m scared that my parents will just shout at me again and say ‘this is what you wanted’. They made it clear that I can’t move again, but I just feel more out of place than ever. I just feel like shutting everyone out again because I don’t want to talk to anyone, and when I do I just snap at them and speak to them aggressively. I feel like relapsing even though I’ve been clean for a couple months, its been so hard to refuse. I’m too scared to confess about how I’m feeling or what I’m thinking of, how am I meant to talk to someone about it though without speaking out anonymously?
Any advice? 😕
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I see you. I've always felt like I don't fit in much. I don't think its because you're fatter or the new kid, I've come to realize that people don't pay that much attention on that. In my personal experience, people don't tend to aproach me because I'm supper closed off, its like they sense they won't get really far with me. I have a hard time opening up and struggle to make new connections. I've been slowly trying to change that, maybe loosen up a bit. I know confrontation is hard, but if you feel like changing school is best FOR YOU then try going for it. In the end its your life. Why should they decide whats best for you? Another thing, if you don't find a friend or just someone to talk to, maybe try a therapist? I know its a big step, and not an easy one, not no mention its scary, I mean, it took me about three years to get the courage to go, but I been going for a few month now and its helped A LOT. It took time because I just couldn't accept that I couldn't solve my problems by myself, something that I'm used to doing, but everything has its limit, and I reached mine. A therapist won't solve your problems magically, but it will help you accept your problems, to really see yourself and sympathise with your issues instead of punishing yourself because of them, or at least thats whats its been doing for me. Oh, and don't hesitate in changing therapist if you don't feel comfortable with the one you found. Finding the right one also takes time, like everything else. If you feel a therapist is not an option then writting a letter, on paper, might help. You don't have to necessarily give it to the person you wrote to, just let everything out, and if you want someone to read them then thats up to you. If by chance nothing I said helps, then remember that you are the one who is in control, not your parents, or the school system, or the people around you. You can choose, and I don't see anything changing if you don't take action.
I hope I didn't offend you in any way, considering I barely know anything about your life, sorry if I didn't help. Anyhow, I wish you the best of luck.
ReplyThank you so much, I will take your advice into consideration and see if anything changes. I really hope it does.
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