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5 months ago · · dating advice,
I'm quite introverted. I've never been in a relationship and I'm 23 years old. I don't tend to share my internal feelings with anyone. It's something that bothers me alot. Due to some past experiences I'm not comfortable with sharing my feelings.
I do like a girl from time to time. But I never muster the courage to ask her out or even communicate with her.
Last year December I saw a girl whom I really liked and was attracted to her from the moment I saw her. She is the cousin of one of my close female friends. I never gathered the courage to tell my friend that I had a crush on her cousin. I kept my feelings hidden for 6 months.
Last week after having 3-4 drinks I gathered the courage and thought it's better to ask for help from my friend and fail rather then regretting it for the rest of my life.
So I told my friend that I liked her cousin and would love to take her out and get to know her more. My friend responded by saying that she knew about this for a long time as she saw me scrolling through her cousin's instagram multiple times. But she didn't say anything because her cousin is in a relationship and it's been 5 years.
She apologized for not being able to help. I told her it's fine.
But now my respect for the girl has increased ten folds. Being in a long term relationship at such a young age means that this girl is of solid character.
I hope and pray that this girl has a happy life ahead of her. But I honestly am feeling a bit down. I really liked her and I'm not that type of a guy who'd do shady things to break someone's relationship.
I know I can't be with her. But the thought of losing out on such a wonderful girl makes me really sad. I won't say I'm depressed or even heart broken. I'm just a bit down for some odd reason.