Lonely

I feel lonely all the time. I'm with you yet I feel so alone. You are never the first one to kiss or touch me anymore and I wonder what I did wrong. I try to make myself better for you, I lose weight, I change my hair, I change my clothes and strat wearing make up again. You say I look "nice", which I know is a compliment still but I wish you would say something better than just nice.

I am on my own most of the time now and when I see you I barely even get greeted by you. I feel sad and numb. My heart hurts on and off between the emptiness.

I try to convince myself that I am fine and hide how I really feel from you. Because even when I tell you how I feel it becomes a problem and I'm not allowed to talk about how I feel.

The only thing that seems to matter is how you are feeling. I'm giving you pieces of myself to fix you but you only seem to know how to take.

I'm tired of this and this does not feel like love anymore.

As always, LonelyGirl