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2 days ago · · motivation
i have always been a "typical" student here in our city. not many people know me, i rarely go out. i believe that people who know me are just my batchmates and classmates.
i can do a lot of things. i do paintings, play musical instruments, draw, sing and i took photos as well with old cams. but the thing is, i cannot focus on one of them. i really do not know how to express it through words but among all these things that i can do, i'm not good in any if them.
i get sick fast of doing things to be honest. one time, i have motivation to make art and after drawing for 15 min and painting it, i get tired of it and just put it back to where i got it.
my interests also change easily thats why im having trouble. im scared for after this upcoming school year, im gonna be in college. i do not know what course to take.
im afraid that when i take that course, i'll get tired and will no longer have motivation to continue my study anymore as i do not have fun in learning it.
im a student who only have two friends. well, maybe i have many people who look at me as their friend but i can only say the i have two friends only. i do not make friends easily. i have always think that they are judging me even if they dont.
i do not use social media anymore. i do not go out with friends ever since the pandemic. we never really saw each other for almost 3 years now. but were still in contact.
anyways, my dream is to earn a lot of money from my hard work. get a stable job and live a stable life with my family.
i still have a lot to learn and face but i am positively manifesting and claiming that i will reach that dream no matter what.
i do not want to be married but if ever my decision will chnage in the future, I want my husband to be a different race. i want to try many things with him and talk about his childhood in his country and love each other through ups and downs.
i will not settle to let my parents hard work go into waste. I will bring them with me to any county they want and give them the life they never had.
future me, my parents, siblings and God please just wait for me. i'll definitely make it.