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My dad got parkinson disease and has a small business which he messed due to lending people who never pay because he didn't wanna lose customers but he lost everything now we are completely broke , my brother is jobless and doesn't wanna work at all mom is a stay at home mom and I just got my bachelor degree I've been looking for a job for a month now and all I find is long term ones which don't suit me since I applied for a master's degree(It's not online 3rd world country....) I found myself confused between my family and my future and career there's no paypal in my country so oneline jobs aren't Available..... we are completely broke like we got nothing to eat my brother doesn't give a damn and just asks for money I have a low chance for getting accepted for master , I have no money I'm hungry and craving something sweet I'm 22 I wanna live like people my age I wanna go out , have fun and travel around the world instead I found myself responsible for all of my family since my dad's retirement is only 100$/month I feel like I got responsible for wrong decisions I haven't made there's no partime jobs in my country and in our culture the family provides everything for their children even help build their future by buying them a house or save them money..... I'm not being dependent or anything but my dad was stingy with us all of my childhood saying that he's doing that to provide for us a better future but he lost all his money and now we're here I can't bear all of this now I have to spend my life in a 9 to 5 job just to provide for my family nothing else and I think I have to sacrifice my master's degree because of this I didn't ask for anything I haven't bought new clothes for so long I only have one shoe I skipped many days in the last year of college to save them money for groceries I'm tired I wanna end my life because it's a never ending nightmare I keep on wishing for things to be different but they just get worse and worse I wish I didn't exist I want to disappear from this life so bad like I don't even have the necessities to live and my future doesn't look bright at all.......I wanna die........
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you can get a job in your area online from LinkedIn or on Facebook or just search up jobs in your area to support your father if that helps
ReplyI'm so active on LinkedIn I applied to 10 jobs and no one of them contacted me I even applied for paid internships
ReplyTry Upwork, Fiverr and/or JobStreet, there are a lot of freelancing jobs out there, it may not be aligned with your course but at least it can give you money to push through somehow. Try using a VPN, it might work. I myself am deliberating on whether or not I should continue to even stay in school due to our financial situation given the inflation rate.
You can also try for call center agencies or insurance companies that have health benefits so that you can support your parents without sacrificing your own savings. We will get through this. Also try to ask for help or donations from prayer groups, though I personally do not find myself religious, may be finding a community could help support your burdens.
As for your brother or sibling who I assume keeps on getting money from you, I suggest you talk to him or give him a heartfelt letter to at least make him understand that life may be hard for your family right now, but it'll be alright. Acknowledge the fact that he may be frustrated too, and that's truly understandable given your situation. But you do need help, and it's going to be even harder if keeps on taking money from you. You can stand your ground and say no -- as hard as it might seem, but it could prompt him to work for his own. Tell him that you're already struggling to support your parents as it is, if he's going to take money from you, at least he should spend it on things for self-improvement instead of spending it from useless things.
You all deserve to live in better situation, and you will, eventually.
It might be hard to cherish your family while they're still alive, but trust me, a little compassion to yourself and to your family will go a long way. : ))
If no one ever made you feel like you deserve love, I'm here to say that you are loved. Find your tribe. Frankly, you also have the option to live on your own and cut off any support to them. Do what makes YOU happy. It's not worth it if you will deprive yourself of the little things then resent your family members for taking your opportunity for happiness.
I may not know you personally, but life will get better. Trust me, it may not be right now, but someday. You will get out of the loop.
P.S. If your brother doesn't really want to cooperate despite attempts of genuine talks, you have the right to refuse giving him anything. You don't owe him anything.
Take it day by day. Breathe. Clear your mind. You got this.
ReplyFind some help! You deserve better life than me,
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