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A vow for the next 5 years
2 months ago · · Success, · Explicit
I've been feeling very lonely lately...
I am a 25 year old guy, I'm originally from a poor country, grew up in a poor city, within a poor family. My whole upbringing was about being successful and getting a good job that would get ud out of that situation. I worked so hard throughout my life and deprived myself from things like going out, girls, vacations, etc...
I've always thought that, everything will follow.
I've been lucky and ended going to Europe to start a job. I was finally in a position where I can start to give in to my desires. All this time, I wanted a girlfriend, wanted to get someone to feel intimate with. After all, I'm human with needs like everyone else.
I started my debut in the dating world.
Sadly, my attempts were all in vain. All girls that I talked to were acting not interested and that was not for lack of trying. I am decent looking, in decent shape and know my way with words, but it just feels that girls nowadays are the center of the universe and everyone is fighting for their attention.
I thought that I am maybe not successful enough, not fit enough, not well traveled and cultured. I decided that I would work on myself.
Within a year I landed a job in FAANG pushing my salary towards six figures. Started to workout, built a decent amount of muscle, traveled across europe and read more.
After getting that job at FANG, I finally thought to myself. Let's try again, let's see how I would fare in the dating scene this time. I downloaded the usual apps, followed the usual advice, posted pictures from my travels, wrote nice and interesting bios and got to work. And like I expected I got more likes and matches, though not like I expected tbh, no matter I got to work.
Girls were giving me more time and messaging me back and forth. But still, that air of entitlement, of putting no effort into the conversation, of asking for creative lines while they had the most boring answers prevailed.
I wasted so much time and energy and had nothing to show for it, I'm now sitting in my bed feeling guilty about the amount of work I blew off for this. Frustrated about the lack of results in proportion to the amount of work I've put in and uncertain about where to go from here.
I'm confused and disheartened. But I know one thing, I vow that today, here and now, I will never chase after women again. I will go on my next sprint and I won't look sideways, ever. I will be the most successful a guy from where I came from ever was. If in the future I happen to find anyone interested in me, I'm sad to say you will never have my heart.
I know that a lot of people will hate on me for thinking this way, but you guys have no idea how bad it feels to be rejected again and again and again. For gods sake I've joined a companies that accepts 1% of the candidates they receive. I've been rejected so many times by my dream companies, but I worked hard and the hard work paid off. But for some reason dating 20 year old girls seems to be orders of magnitude harder.
Nonetheless, I know that like I prevailed previously I will do so again. I will be successful and will get girls. But I promise they won't have my heart and will not extract an ounce of emotion from me. I really think that the amount of rejections guys get while young is what makes them so emotionally callused after. Why would I? When I know that you and everyone like you would have never given the time of day just a few years back. That now you feel entitled to my hard earned money and resources while you did none of the work.
Anyway no matter, this is henceforth my vow for the next 5 years. To stop chasing women, or clout of anything remotely done to impress women. This is my vow to stop being a pussy, and go out there to grow and develop myself.
Get ready world!