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1 year ago · Hell,
My name is Julia and I'm 15. I consider myself to be liberal. This is my point of view on life/current events. I think it's interesting to hear other people's povs but that's not why I'm writing this. I just want to write. Not for anyone else, just myself.
I'm from, and currently living in, the southern part of the US and I want to leave it. Honestly I want to leave the whole world behind, not just the US. I'd kill myself but I want to go to college. Maybe I'll do it after college. If I were God (or whatever is in control) I would press the reset button. I hate society. I hate my country and it's corrupt government. I hate the majority of people that I know. They are all ignorant but think they know it all.
I feel myself being negatively affected by everything around me and in the media. I'm becoming hateful and angry like them. I don't want to be like that but sometimes it feels so good to be angry. It's very apparent that I'm losing my empathy, which is a big part of who I am. I just don't care about people the way I used to. I thinks it's because most people I've witnessed don't actually want to help themselves. They just want to complain about their problems and blame everyone else for causing them.
Many people like to fight fire with fire. Those people need to grow the hell up. I've seen people respond to hateful comments with more blatantly hateful comments. Not towards the hateful person themselves, but towards a group that the person is a part of. Aka, towards other people who weren't involved. Attacking innocent people just because someone else attacked you is not a valid reason. People whose whole lives revolve around discriminating against others are disturbed and should not be entertained by other people stooping to their level to achieve "revenge" on them or to have a good "comeback".
I daydream of stabbing people sometimes and it makes me feel alive. Not that I ever would..... at least not for no reason. I have a dark fantasy revolving being attacked and then killing my attacker. It would make me feel powerful but I know it's not actually something I should want in real life. I live to daydream. It's the only thing that makes me feel anything. Racism, homophobia, misogyny, rape, and abortion is all I hear about. I'm sick of it. Recently I've been daydreaming about killing a rapist. I think they should serve life in prison. No exceptions.
On the news I heard of a 10 year old girl who was raped by a family member and had to go out of state to get a legal abortion. The story is viral. Think of the trauma she already has from being raped and then add the fact that she got pregnant. Can you imagine how messed up she'd be if she had to give birth? The abortion debate is not about protecting children. It's about power. If the politicians really cared about children, they would be doing more to improve the foster care system which is where tons of kids would end up without abortion. Theres already not enough people who are willing to adopt. We don't need more homeless, un-cared for orphans.
(Side note: People who wanted, but couldn't have abortions could also just chose to neglect their unwanted children or kill them as toddlers. I've of seen cases like that on the news)
They'd also be doing more to improve the school system. They'd be making sure kids were safe at school and not about to be shot up. They'd be investing more time and money into catching child predators and kidnappers. Ive seen a massive increase in Amber alerts recently.
I'm bored of writing now. I'm bored of everything now. Btw it's very late and I haven't slept yet so if my sentences are constructed weirdly.... that's why.
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