What are you looking for?
To the one who wrote an entry entitled "Why"...
6 months ago · · Stress,
Everything what you said applies to me too except for the instagram friends part. I've never been into social media that much. But like you, happiness is all I really want. To live a life. I just don't understand why I feel so unlucky. Like everything in my life is falling apart. Funny because even one of my relatives tried to blame bad feng shui (although we're not really Chinese). But her pointing that out is like her saying "Dang girl, what happened? You're life is really a mess."
I tried to condition my mind. I've read a few tips on how to overcome this and most od them are saying that it's all in the mind. But it is not really working out. There are times that I'll just have a breakdown. Mood dropping so low, can't even do anything productive. I feel like I'm so broken that even success stories makes me tear up and think how I'm a failure. I wanna seek some medical help but it's quite pricy. So I'm praying that self-medication eventually works out for us people who really need to be healed mentally.