What are you looking for?
2 months ago · · Advice,
Hey. So I have been going to the gym for 4 months now on and off. I go with my mom mostly. There is a guy I find cute. It was not love at the first sight. But then when I started going regularly I noticed him. We have had eye contacts but they meant nothing. I mostly avoid eye contact with everyone. I am one overly conscious, insecure and not good looking girl. I am also very shy and try to avoid every possible human interaction. So basically I just go there do my exercises ( actually struggle). I am quite weak rn can't lift much weights but I try.
Okay so the guy I am talking about is super strong and has a really good built. He is macho types with beard and all. He is only into his workout. I don't think he ever noticed me. He probably doesn't even know I go to the same gym. He never looked at me. Never. I always look at him when he's not looking so he doesn't know. Every time I enter the gym , my eyes always be looking for him. Ahh so weird I am. But I do this and can't tell anyone.
He according to me is the most attractive man in our gym and I am some random ugly looking chick. He would never be interested in me because I look hideous. But I really wish he once talked to me or atleast acknowledge my presence for once. But I really doubt if that's ever gonna happen. He is too good for me. He probably has a gf. And also why would he ever notice me when there so many other better looking girls in our gym and in the outside world.
I think I have a crush on him. I don't even remember the last time I had a crush on someone. It's been ages. So it all seems so new, exciting and annoying at the same time. I hate that I have a crush on someone who doesn't even know me. I know his name but he doesn't know mine. I liked him way before I knew his name. I didn't even tried it was like universe made ways for me to know his name at the time I was wondering how in this world I would ever get to know his name. Cause he doesn't talk to anyone. I also have not seen him smiling or laughing. Always seen his focused face. Wth. What do I do? I just hope all this fades away soon. The sooner the better. Cause we don't have a future together for sure.