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1 month ago · · Stressed out,
It's been a long time since I've written on here, a lot has happened. The friend group I've talked about, the three of us, well that's no longer a thing anymore. I don't really want to get into it really, all I'll say is despite it being for the best, despite her horrible actions towards me and the other girl, it hurt so much when she left. Why does nothing veer work out? Maybe friendship groups are just meant to be a pair, duos. My sister heard me recording a rant audio the other day (I like to either type or speak rather then write so I can understand better and it's faster) I was talking about a past argument that had happened between my mum, me and her partner. She'd overheard and recorded me so she could send it to my mum without me knowing. When my mum got home I was in a lot of trouble. She got mad at me because I was talking about her partner and about how much I hated him on that day. I have a right to, I experienced my first ever panic attack because of him, he thre@tened me and brought personal things about me into it-which if I remember correctly I had only told my mum about. So now she's taken my 'freedom' away from me, I'm now not allowed to have my air pods in for a long time, I'm not allowed to stay in my room for a long period of time, I have to go out with her to places, I can't stay home alone as much anymore, I'm not allowed downstairs by myself on nights anymore, I can't sleep in anymore, I have a limited screen time on my phone now, I've had my TV taken off my wall because my mum is 'fixing it' but she purposely broke the plug so I cant watch anything...I know, I saw. And to top that all off, she's been going through my diary again, yay. I'm at my dad's house at the moment, so that's why I'm able to upload. I've also been feeling down again, a lot recently. Idk what it is, but I just feel, well I don't even know how to describe it to be honest. I'm going on holiday soon with my dad's side of the family, so hopefully that'll cheer me up a bit. I could write for hours on end, but I don't want to bore you.
I hope whoever is reading this, you're doing well! <3