Unmedicated

Numb

Angry

Weeping

Not breathing

Rage I can’t control

Icy grip on my heart that squeezes

Guilt guilt guilt

A bad mother

A mean mommy

Lonely touch me not

Why can’t you fucking hear me

Why can’t you fucking see me

Head ache

Eyes burning

Numb

Quiet

Feels like dying

Am I dead already?

Or do I wish I was

Idle hands that ache and writhe

Confused and numb

Drowning myself in icy water just to feel something

Relieve the pressure from my head

I’ll drill a hole and wait for leaks

Always tired of too much sleep

Getting high because the lows terrify

Too deep

I’ll surely drown or live under the water forever

Floating in the dark

Head under water filling my ears

Covering my eyes

Here id like to stay

The land of the living and sea of the dead

Floating somewhere in the half-way