The favourite

She admitted to hitting me as a child because she wanted me to be an example too my sister who she couldn’t bare to harm because of medical reasons

She used me to talk sense into my sister and dad when things got too hard for her and needed time away from being an adult, a parent

If my sister wanted to do something I had to always do it with her. If my sister wanted to go home I was expected to drop everything and leave with her. Regardless of my feelings.

I tried to kill myself and my own fucking mother told my sister I had an allergic reaction to some chemicals. She said it would be bad for HER mental health to know I was struggling. and as for my dad? He doesn’t even know. He wasn’t there. He never is.

Now my mum favours me in the way she trusts me to get things done ans my sister is always complaining about how my mum doesn’t trust her and how she’s the forgotten least favourite child. How fucking dare she. She knows nothing about being an after thought. Everything in my life has ALWAYS evolved around her.

But maturing is realising that is not the siblings fault you were treated the way you were treated it’s the parents. I just wish she’d be more grateful.