WellShit

Borderline Personality Disorder

This whoooooole fucking time

Since I was little I was always going through it. Crying getting mad at tiny things. The neglect the hatred I've received. Since the beginning.

High School is when it started being a kind of noticeable problem after me and my ex broke up...and BOOM I started feeling shit more.

Then comes after high school life....Damn you guys it hurt soo bad, and tough it still does. College, covid, covid turns my culinary school into a YouTube tutorial. Family trauma appears in my memory, realizing past shit wasn't okay, Family sucks, and prolly doesn't exist, same do I. But okay so, everyday a rollercoaster of emotions. Eye contact hurts now, talking is a battery now, working is traumatic now, friends any interaction with a human I'm attracted to is a higher level of hard... I'm different everyday and can't stay the same.

BPD ugh no one gets it unless you have it? I try and try to explain, but nah. I'm not in pain, sure, I don't look ill

But Like I Am

And I Hope I Can Make it,