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So, for the last year or so, I (17 male) have had some problems with food. It all started last year, because due to no apparent reason, I started losing weight slowly, like 200 grams per month, but when I looked at myself in the mirror I saw both the improvement it made in my body and all the fat there was left.
(Context) I've never had an athletic body, I've never liked sport and so I wasn't really fit, more on the contrary, but I didn't care at first. Until the middle of primary school, when people started calling me fat and other stuff and created this "worsened" version of myself, which has tormented me until this day lol.
Ok, so back to the main problem, from that point on, I really didn't do anything to lose weight, i just left my body on its own and eating normally and still I lost weight, so i was ok with that. But the serious stuff started on April-May, when apart from losing weight like that, I started eating less, but just a little bit, because I still saw myself fat. And so I've kept on losing weight up to a point where there are some days I see myself and be repulsed because i can't stop seeing that deformed fat image, and others when I'm repulsed by how thin i am, because my bones are really starting to show up kind of excessively.
And with all of that as "context", my most important problem is that right now my appetite drive is completely out of hand in the starving sense, because every time I see food i immediately feel full and when i start eating i get this nauseous feeling like I'm about to throw up. Also, when i eat in front of my friends (I've talked with some of them about this), I feel insecure and anxious because i see them eating whilst i can't even finish half my meal.
So I really need advince on how to get out from here, as it has completely gone out of hand and I feel completely unable to solve it on my own and get back that "hunger" I had in the past.
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Since it has 'completely gone out of hand' and you 'feel completely unable to solve it on your own', perhaps seeing a doctor and getting professional advice and treatment is the best choice.
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I'm not trying to just throw you at the professionals, but it's hard to fix an eating disorder on your own. With the right help, I'm sure you'll be able to find a solution so that you will be happy and in good health :)
Reply(sorry me again lol)
Until you see a doctor, I would suggest starting with food that you like, and small portions, so that you can feel accomplished with finishing a meal. Also it wont be helpful to compare your body with someone else's, or compare your plate with theirs. That will only discourage you. Care for yourself, and don't feel bad about it!
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