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Rural wales holiday,
20th wedding anniversary.
Idyllic landscapes
All your worries at bay-
The perfect escape from the world
But for me a holding cell
A naughty step
Where I’m forced to think about
All the things I quell
Family dinners
Riddled with long silences
And wallowing
Apart from the insufferable sound
of chewing and swallowing
A sibling quarrel
My brother doesn’t care
So I excuse myself from the table
Because “my brain doesn’t feel all there.”
I miss my friends
I don’t know if they miss me.
My life feels miserable
While their life is a party
I do want a drink
The local has a new PhotoBooth
I should really be sober
But I think I’d be missing out on my youth…
There are 100 men that want me
But to them all,
I mean nothing.
Merely an object,
Not real,
Merely Something
To fuck
To sext
To play a character in their weird fantasies
I am simply there to please
I play along sometimes,
Just to feel wanted.
For one second to feel desired,
Needed.
But none of them are him
I block them all after
by the shame I am haunted
I miss him so much
But he won’t come back
Life without him.
It’s like a panic attack
I wish he was mine but
It’s time to say goodbye
I’ve done too much damage now.
Maybe in another time?
With one bar of signal,
I had an emotional therapy session
Crying because I know
Nothing , no one
can cure my depression.
I have to face it alone
Now that he can’t hold me when I cry.
No more hiding behind silly distractions
By myself,
I’ll have to wipe the tears dry.
“Sadness is just an emotion”
Says Sarah, my therapist
She isn’t wrong-
But it sure feels like more,
Because I feel everything too strong.
Change comes from within
It takes a lot of hard work
As much as i try
trauma still lurks
Bad memories from berlin
Are added into the mix
Seems impossible to imagine
That I’ll ever be fixed
The man taunts my head
Whenever I think I’m healing
I close my eyes in bed
And he appears on the ceiling.
I think I’ve come to find
Rural settings aren’t my cup of tea
I am glued to my bed
My heart aches terribly.
Ive ruined the holiday
I want to leave
This week is not “zen”
I can’t even seem to enjoy the sea
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