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I can't. I can't stand this. I am oppressed by myself and my surroundings. What makes me feel good is also my burden. But I can't do anything about it. Being online is one of those things that makes me feel good, but at the same time, it binds others that could improve me. Did I really learn something from what I love? The things I idolize? Or am I the problem? Is it I who do not understand what surrounds me, what I look at, what I feel...? However, being here and listening to this music alone in my room will not change things, not at all. But what else can I do? My head is a merry-go-round of indecision and change, making me unable to do multiple things that could improve myself. Aside from laziness, which is a terrible thing for some things I need to improve, it may be that everything I'm writing is just a stupid excuse to fool myself that it's okay, which isn't my fault. But is it or is it not? I think because of my damn insecurity, I would say it is a 50 and 50. Should I make someone read what I write? But maybe I would be impudent to show someone such a thing, because of never having done it in my life. I would seem like someone I don't want to seem, but all of this is just trying to be an outlet. But who am I to let off steam in this way? Do I really deserve it? Do I really deserve to let off steam in this way when I've never done anything relevant in this existence? Yes... I may have helped someone else on a sentimental level, but in this world so rational and careless, feelings are the last wheel of the wagon, and it's the facts that matter. And what do I actually have ...? I don't know... I don't think I've ever proved anything to anyone... But is it possible that I should feel this way about such a thing? Sequential images depicting two people feeling something for each other... something I've longed for. And I, selfishly I also pretend to want such a thing... but what did I do to be able to deserve it? Maybe I'm too cruel to myself... Or am I right? I can't give myself an answer by myself. I would like not to depend on others, but what are the triggering facts that make me think all this?
I have to do something.
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