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1 month ago · · Loneliness
Ever since I was born, no one has ever seen me as a very important person in their life. I've always been the one who looks from the window. Maybe because I am a person who's mostly in the back, I was never able to receive love. Or at least, the love I expect. My family and close friends love me, but I've never been as the number one daughter or friend for them. It's more like they love me just because I'm their daughter, or just because I've been for them in hard times. People see me as a comfort doll that they tell their problems to. But this is just for my close friends. In general I am a person you would talk to, like me but not be friends with me, and then find me annoying. This has always been the case. It feels like people see me as a pushover. I am a doll who can be quickly replaced. Sometimes I think that there is some kind of energy that surrounds me which pushes people away. I know that the problem is not in me, but I can't help but think so sometimes.
I feel like loneliness is something I have to bear with me until death.