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A letter to my ex boyfriend
1 month ago · · break ups,
We were just classmates. Barely noticed each other and walked own way until I responded to your story. Then we started talking. You helped me get through my mental barriers and I helped you to be less lonely.
We were best friends, partner in crime and nothing could stop us. But then we held hands that day. And I felt butterflies. You did too. I pictured us to be a healthy, loving couple.
I always thought you’d have my back. And in a way you did. But you started getting all over me. Suddenly I felt like you were engulfing me. I was suffocating and when I told you, you blamed me for it. You were the person I did first’s everything with. You were the first person I lost my virginity to. You were the first person I went to club with. I gave you my all And yet, you kept doubting me. You asked me to show you my clothes, my room, who i was with and more everytime we called.
You asked me if my personality was like of thot’s.
But then you changed a little. Not much but just a little. You stopped calling me every thirty minutes. But I still felt suffocated, yet I stayed with you. I tried breaking up with you multiple time and you persuaded me to stay. And I did. Hoping we would be healthy again. But all it remained was as hope. You screen recorded the video call without my consent knowing fully well I wasn’t comfortable with it. You took screenshot of me in just my panties and bra without my consent.
I still stayed with you. Through all the fights, my declining mental health and my family and friend’s protests, I tolerated you and stayed. Until today. You screamed at my sister. My little sister. My sister shouldn’t have spoken in the middle of us arguing or talking, i admit it. But she was speaking up for me. You yelled at her saying nasty stuffs.
I will never tolerate this. So today was the last straw.
Yet you still blamed me in the end. You blamed that I couldn’t defend you. Yes, I couldn’t because you were the one who lost your temper with my sister while she was just trying to speak up for me. It’s not that I didn’t value you. If didn’t, we wouldn’t last a year and I wouldn’t defend you infront of my family and friends for a year and I wouldn’t give you my all.
I hope, I hope you grow into a good man. I hope you’ll choose the right way. I will always be grateful to you for being there when no one was. And somewhere in the future, I hope we can still have the friendship we had in the past.
I love you.