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1 month ago · · Remorse,
I was born poor, but I was a good kid once.
Then I got destroyed by poverty.
Once hardships came attacking me,
I got manipulated by the more fortunate people, by people with easier, happier, wealthier life than mine,
My confidence was destroyed early and I got ridiculed for being poor.
And I turned into monster, I hurt people closest to me when I was supposed to always protect them against the people who mocked me,
But I got manipulated, I got sucked into hatred by the people who mocked me. I got zero self-esteem.
And now I only able to realize everything after it's already too late, I'm left with regrets.
It's easy to critize others for not doing as well as you do when you got it much easier and better than them. Why, why didn't I realize that back then? Why I didn't keep reminding myself and remember it in my soul?
I'm sorry for people I've hurt because of my belligerence. I didn't think about them more often. I was selfish. I'm sorry.