another poem i wrote

maybe we didn’t work out,

and maybe it wasn’t how i wanted it to turn out.

but the fact that you just gave up on us so easily in the end shows how maybe it was actually clear from the very start.

confusing though, really.

i gave you my whole heart,

it’s silly.

you showed how passionate you were for us at the beginning,

but i guess what we were had no meaning.

you’re so different now, not the same as before.

i never needed money, i never needed fame, i’m not like them.

i should’ve received so much more.

more of you. that’s for sure.

i know we didn’t work out,

and i know it wasn’t how i wanted it to turn out.

but now i’ve grown to accept that you were never going to change for me,

not because i wasn’t enough because i am always enough.

but you were now not enough for me.

i know you loved me too.

but you let go of me,

you let go of me because you couldn’t hold on to me tighter when things got tougher because you couldn’t show me real love.

“i want to focus on myself”

was what you said,

take your time,

because when you’re back

maybe after months

maybe even after years

i won’t be here.

i deserved to be loved harder,

held closer,

and treated better.

and since you were never going to give that to me,

i’m no longer willing to wait for you.

yes, we didn’t work out

and yes it wasn’t how i wanted it to turn out.

but maybe one day you give someone else one endless love,

and while you do that

i will learn to love myself harder,

and treat myself better.

because there is no love like my own.

written by me :))

-sp