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It's really gotten hard to keep it together. The most I can do is be slightly okay when I'm outside when I have to be, but I just feel like something keeps breaking inside me. Even with all the effort I think I'm putting why is it that I'm so alone?
From the start I have never had many friends. First year of university I barely talked to anyone, kept to myself, usually read comics in break. Started hanging out with two girls from 2nd year and now it's the 3rd year and we still hang out, but I can never feel close to them. It's obvious that they are more close to each other so I can't help feeling left out.
We had a poster competition earlier this week and I made the poster all by myself when the group was of 11 people and another guy presented it, and it was just shitty to hear everyone praise that guy today. Even my group mates/"friends" who knew I made the poster.
There have been several times when different people have asked me for favors and I have gladly helped but why the hell do I have to be so alone then? When will this stop.
I feel so unloved. Even my parents, the only time they show "love" is when I get good grades or do what they want me to exactly like they want me to, and I'm not their "perfect" daughter. I'm just not so it just feels so damn bad when they make me feel like what I like is stupid. How do people get loved so effortlessly?
I can't even study at home anymore. I'm either sleeping, miserable or crying. I'm just so tired.
There's this person I met online and I really like him and I keep trying so hard but that won't work either. He won't talk to me either anymore because I snapped at him earlier and I'm just losing my mind.
Why does everyone else look so effortlessly close and happy? I want that too, so why can't i feel close to anyone even though I'm trying my best to be nice. Wtf is wrong with me. I don't want to feel this shitty anymore. I don't even have anyone to talk to or complain to anymore because honestly no one even cares to ask. I used to have a best friend but she got a boyfriend and she stopped contacting me. I tried for a while before stopping myself. Just made me feel like she was hanging out with me cause she was alone and now that she isn't anymore I'm too boring to hang out with or too much of a mess. Just feels like that the only reason anyone would hang out with someone like me is if they have no one else. I just want to feel important to someone. Hell,i don't even feel important to myself.
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If you have God in your life you will never be alone.
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