My Unsent Letter

Hey, it's been a few hours since we spoke. I sent you a message but deleted it too.

It's almost a year since we broke up... You still want to be friends though.

You said I hurt you, I'm not sure how. But I know I hurt myself most.

I wanted a break so we could focus on school. It so happened that two other guys confessed to me on the same day. I rejected them, told you about it and asked for a break. But I think you misunderstood and this was the outcome.

I love you. I loved you so much it scared me and everyone around me. We can't be together for so many reasons but I still want you.

Each time I confess, you don't even turn me down. You just laugh it off and move on with the conversation.

Why?

If you don't like me, turn me down. Reject me. But you don't do that.

People say that your first love is hardest to move on. Yet you did that so well while I'm still suffering.

I don't want to be your friend because it hurts when I see you talk to other girls, being friends reminds me of the times we used to love each other.

But being friends is the closest I can get to you.

I'm sorry.