What are you looking for?
To love and be loved
1 day ago · · Love,
I think I’m experiencing what being *in* love is like for the first time. The one that runs deep, makes you smile unwillingly, that is unshakable and makes you blush kind of love. I thought I had experienced it before but damn I was wrong. I know that love is supposed to be a good feeling. And for the most part it is, except for the fact that I can never be with this person. Not in the way I want. There’s no chance in heaven due to a million reasons and one. It’s not a something I can change or fix. It’s not in my control. The only thing I can do is move on and they can never know. I just can’t believe the first time I ever let myself love I simultaneously gave myself a broken heart. Falling fking hurts physically, but the metaphor kind hurts in ways I didn’t know existed.
I’m probably going to delete this, but I guess I just needed to let it out.