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2 months ago · · Depression,
It’s 6 days until my birthday and already things have started falling apart like they always do, people pushing me away or just leaving again too… nothing is planned like normal, I asked if I could take a double at work that day so at least I’m not alone. No one there knows it’s my bday so I can just pretend it’s any other day but honestly I just want to die. Before anyone freaks out I’m not going to do it, I wish and I’ve tried but I can’t. Every day I’m in pain, I’m starving but it hurts to eat. I thought I finally found real love, I was soooo happy but like all good things it didn’t last. Who could love me tho really. I just… I want it to end, haven’t I fought enough? Haven’t I had enough pain? Ik I can’t kill my self but can’t something else happen, anything? I’ve done so much for some many people in my life when is it my turn? And I know it’s never so why can’t it just end? Please… I can’t do this anymore