I'm doing well or not?

I have so many things to write but I don't know what to write. I'm wasting my life without realising. When I passed my graduation I really want to do jobs for self construction but I never get that and now I lost all my confidence.

I stucked at my home doing home chores and no one cares how I feel, what I want. No one asks.

I want to build my career but I have no money and now no confidence. I want to be a writer and my inspiration is going far away from me, it is getting away from my clutch. Still I'm doing well, I'm enduring. But sometimes it is really hard to endure without saying a single word.

Sometimes it is like I'm of no worth, but I'm still surpassing myself and now it is very hard.