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Im so pissed off and i hate people. I hate everything
2 months ago · Stressed out, · Explicit
This is just a vent I'm releasing everything from thoughts, old beliefs and I'm creating healthy and more positive ones. Please don't hate on me and think ill of me. Thank you.
Another reason why I hate people is because this guy wanted their to be something wrong with me and he didn't care about how I felt.
He told me what to do and he yelled at me and called me stupid for not listening. He lied and said he loved me and he tried to punish me.
He hated on me and he felt good about himself because some doctor hated on me and called me mentally ill when I'm not. I was lied to about my diagnosis and the guy didn't care.
He felt better about himself. He was happy and proud something was wrong with me. I hated him and the doctor. I felt betrayed. I was betrayed.
That's how I felt and then he left and no one did anything no one took my side.
I bet you God didn't even care. That's why i don't believe in God because it feels like he agrees with human who attack me.
Also I don't even know if God exists anyway. I don't know why I even said this. But I am jut releasing old pathetic beliefs that I never got to talk about thoroughly. I need this badly.
No one is on my side except me. It just feels like everyone seems to get by with everything and I feel like I'm not loved by anyone.
Im going back and forth on this because don't know what exists and what doesn't. I don't know if demons,spirits,God, anything like that exist. Because people lied to me and expected me to believe this nonsense.
I mean I don't see any evidence. I don't hear any evidence. I don't know what the evidence could be exactly. I'm a skeptical person. I feel like EVPs are just fake.
But I don't know for sure and I don't believe God exists because if God did I would believe God would help you and not leave you abandoned.
People say that Jesus wants you to need him but I don't believe Jesus exists. And also why would I need Jesus.
What purpose would this be? How would this help me? I don't understand. It doesn't make sense. I'm not going to believe something because someone told me.
I don't believe demons exist. If I did I would hate them but then everyone does so there is no point of mentioning this.
Also I just wanted to say that I think I demons were to exist they would say mean things to people just like humans do.
Like they would hate on you and make you suicidal. But I don't know for sure I'm just talking an rambling on about stuff I don't know about.
Also I don't see the point of religion anyway it just stresses me out. I feel like I read the religious texts just to help me with something else though like I mean I feel like when I read it. It helps me think of ideas.
I guess it helps be more creative. I don't know why and I don't care if it doesn't make sense.
I guess it is because I know it's just a story. I get inspired by fables and such. That's probably why. Also this is so stupid but I don't care. I have myself.
Also I feel betrayed by humans and society that I feel like I have to erase everything and I mean everything from my memory because it's not important.
I don't care what people say because I'm my own best friend. I don't need and or want anyone around me.
I just feel like I can't be myself because people betrayed me and they didn't love me like I love myself. No one knows what I have been through so they can't say much.
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