His beautiful smile..

"I love you", he said those three words to me. His face seemed different this time. I was so excited to talk to him that night. He just came from a weekend company vacation. He usually greets me with a big smile and a kiss but that time he seemed different... I went to my bed and talk to him about how I am so stressed at work. He comforted me. I told him I wish we can be together. It's been almost 3 years, we're only talking through a video call. Even though I didn't get to meet him, I fell so in love with him and he was as well with me. I can feel it. I felt it... there was a moment of silence, I felt that my heart was racing. I never felt the same thing before. He finally said it's hard to maintain this long distance relationship... my heart dropped. I suddenly felt the tears on my cheek as if like I know that this will eventually happen. I just kept crying... and crying. He is the type of person that doesn't really explain things. I asked him if he was tired already. he said yes. i asked her, "do you want out relationship to end?" He did not answer. It was like he wants me to say it. we talked for hours. He cried and i told him we should stop already. i wanna end the video call. It was hurting us. He doesn't want to turn it off. Another hour passed by, we found ourselves reminiscing about the past two and seven months together. He cried so much. that was the first time i saw him cry. I felt like my heart was so heavy. I said "let's end this call please. please let's stop hurting ourselves". We were calm after few minutes. I saw him smile one last time when I said his name instead of using our endearment. I saw his beautiful smile one last time. We agreed not to talk after that call. It was already one am. we said goodnight to each other and I finally turned it off.. without i love yous and heart emojis. we stopped talking. we just ended our relationship of almost 3 years. Our plans together faded away and I hope we will be okay someday.