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I hate you but i love you more
3 months ago · · Unrequited Love,
I met you almost a year back, you were sad because of your breakup. I know you loved her till eternity and you were heartbroken. But i am glad that you felt happy around me or atleast felt better when spending time with me. We became very close friends, and i started falling for you.
You had something for me too, but you were way to broken to think of us as something. I remember in one conversation you said that you dont think you will be able to date someone for atleast next 3 to 4 years. Then why did you get close enough to me and made me feel special. Okay maybe you didn't know then that i have feeling for you and you were just trying to find comfort.
But i felt its important for you to know that how feel about you that i really like you. i know that was quite a new to you, but how come you expect that after all that intimacy and closness, having conversation till 4 in the morning, sitting right next to each other holding hands in hands, would not initiate any feeling within me. And when i told you that i really like you. I understand you mentioned that you dont feel the same, but then why you still took care of me, i saw you trying hard to maintain some distance between us. But why at the end of the day you do wanna to stay next to me.
And i am a hopeless romantic, even knowing that we dont have a future. I always let you in my personal space. I dont just like you, I love you to the core. How come after all of this you choose to date someone else. And not even that still you like to spend more time with me, you keep on mentioning that you miss me when i am not next to you. Why are you still leading me on? Even after knowing that how much i am in love with you. And why you seek my help when you feel low. why you always want to sit next to me when you feel tired, why are you asking me to shift to a new job in the same organisation. Why you say you'll miss me if i join some other organisation.
You call me your best friend and then tell me someting about yourself and mentions that only i know this. I know what kind of bad past you had, i know how your mom is sick and everything about you and i know that why you dont want to tell this to other people around you. But why do you have to make me feel special.
I love you more than anything in this world, sometimes i feel obsessed with you. not that i act that way. Whenever you are with your girlfriend my heart sinks. I hate you way to much but then again i love you also way to much.