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3 months ago · · Suicide,
I never thought I'd live this long. I'm suprised. I guess it's a good suprise.
I like it here but I still recall when I didn't. I remember imaging disembowling myself or skinning myself to kill myself in the most painful way. I think it's funny how how I always thought of gruesome death methods but still never had the courage to cut. Maybe I'm a coward. Maybe I don't know what I want.
I wonder if I'll kill myself in the future? Only time will tell.