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Yeah well its nothing new how dad acted today. Spoke of throwing us down if they win the lottery. I already knew his loyalty is not with me and mom. I told mom are just goes I don't care. That's not true though because he was in jail a few days 4 years ago looking at 4 years she couldn't quit crying. But fast forward both her and I have I undergone a lot of verbally emotional abuse from him . Me some physical. I still want vengeance for the physical harm he did to me . Last was thrown off a porch from 6 ft up I landed on my knee to catch myself. I was limping for a week or 2. He never apologized for that or the beatings. A fewdars ago he almost was gonna hurt me again.
So I officially have nothing for him I don't care if its his million ever changing moods because he binges on drugs , gets near sober cries about being out to me yet not caring the hell we or I was put through from his yelling cussing keep us up all night for a half week to 1.5 weeks. me having to babysit him watch him so he don't catch the house on fire from smoking. Mom's not able to she has a knee issue.
Also he's stupidm I don't even know what to think anymore. Despite knowing how addicted he is and that no more can be found hes stupidly abusing them. Fine when he's out he's out let him take responsibility for his own actions. Don't cry to me with crocodile tears. Especially after you jumped up cussed me then came at me as if to fight me. I'm fed up with him. His addiction is too big. Its not my responsibility. He knows you can't go cold turkey. I mean I'm really fed up here. His psychotic episodes om top of getting drunk screw him. I had compassion last month then comes at me like a crocodile.
I got nothing for him he'll treat my aunt and his drug acquaintances good, kiss his drug acquaintances asses talk to them like honey, but me he treats like sh!t yet wants to use me for my meds because he stupidly don't care how he abuses them I'm done with it all. Ok its wrht on too long. Plus saying he's tired if me????!!!? He's the one who leeched my savings and 401k and left me with $0. So yeah why should I have anything for a person like him. What's bad is mom defends his abusive behavior unless he's telling at her.
I'm just tired of having to worry about him and running out of my meds he's making /made his problem mine. He needs to leave. Ive just had all I can handle of him. He will hand most his money to his dealer then cry and blame us for it. I want a happy life he certainly isn't helping it. That's what I get for showing compassion to him he comes at me like a raging grizzly bear. Im too good of a person to have to keep going through this, its why no other family will keep him or have him even my cousin. But he's a proud family act like he's above his raising so we don't even talk he's too good for us all. .
Nobody seems to give a fk about what they do to me so excuse me if I say๐๐and want nothing to do with my family.
My grievances are valid.
I don't know where to go from here. It seems like mom n dad are my enemy now they hate me for no reason and truth telling how they act to them. And idk why else. Dad is mental he needs mental and drug help. But I'm not responsible for him. Anymore than he is me. He already said he'd abandon me in the gutter despite him leeching my savings.
He's somebody who needs the sh!t beat out of him especially for all ways he's abused me. Ok I'll stop its getting late. I do believe he'll pay eventually
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