Little heartbreak

I just want to release some emotions here, comments or words of kindness are very much appreciated…

Basically I met a guy from dating app for about 10 months or so, I slowly took a liking to him, but we never actually met due to country differences, but we kept in contact, and around Halloween we got more flirty with the text.

I was really happy that there is progress between us, and I slowly wanting to ask him out, or like if there could be anything between us, but before anything, I remember he mentioned he was in a poly relationship with someone and already broken up, as I am mono I don’t think I can handle in a poly relationship, so I decided to ask him about it, and he, being a very nice and told me he isn’t open to mono at the time, as it is not what he is seeking.

Upon knowing, i of course, decide to be nice and thank him. Inside I really unsure what to do, as his “at the time” makes me think I might have that slight chance, but also, if I should just move on from him and just tell him I feel more than just friends, of course I won’t force him on anything but is more of a, I wanted to tell him and let myself have a closure and move on. Is not my first time having a rejection, almost everytime I am interested in a guy slowly, it will always ends in rejection, so I am pretty used to that feeling but I not gonna deny, it hurts still.

To him, really thank you for showing me that I am worth the effort and sticking by, i enjoy all the conversations we had, never a moment I regret what we had, it made me feel special and happy, thank you so much. I hope you can find someone out there who will treasure, cherish and love you.

To myself, is alright to feel hurt and cry about it. Nothing wrong and you still can find someone out there. If you have slight luck, he may find you are really worth the while, but is alright, just focus on what you need to do now, cry for a night or two and you’ll be back on your feet again, okay?