Jesus is my savior and ours

You ever have those days where you are just tired of everything tired of people tired of things tired of life wishing that you can escape and go somewhere far away because every day it's the same thing. You ever just want to end it all just kill yourself because you see no point in living and think you're a useless disappointment. WELL, DONT!!!! because you're not your special to somebody out there and if you're not special to someone out there or someone you admire you are special to God. We all need to remember that Jesus Christ sacrificed his self on the cross for us and this is how humanity pays him. Misguiding the youth hating one another. Last Thursday i had these terrible thoughts and felt extremely bad felt useless like I wanted to kill myself I even cut myself with a pair of scissors. I knew that something was wrong, and I was like it's probably just one of those days, but I shouldn't have those days because initially the world wasn't supposed to have sin but unfortunately it did and still does. The point is God saved me he literally told me to come to him and seek him and no he didn't literally say it like I heard his actual voice, but he gave me a sign on Facebook after that I started listening to prayers and Lauryn hill listened to some gospel music and was really feeling the holy spirit who is real. The next day i felt really good like really good i feel good just being here just being able to write this on novni. Imagine if every time someone said they wanted to die or wanted to kill themselves God did it right then and there. it wouldn't be fair because he didn't give us a chance to see the beauty of life or give us the chance to apologize and repent to come back to him. It is unfortunate but rather people believe it or not there are a lot of famous people who may not be in heaven some are probably in hell I don't know. I do know that life is hard and at times you feel nothing you feel like you want to hurt yourself or like what's the point but please don't do it is not worth it. Also, Christians are not perfect stop the stereotyping no one i mean absolutely no one in the world is perfect I slip up all the time but at the end of the day or in that moment I would repent. Jesus really is forgiving, and I find it sad how not much of society is talking about him or if they talk about him, it's a huge debate which it shouldn't be because Hes perfect. You want to know how I know God is real because how are we here because of a creator. I know it's confusing to people a lot of people let a job or let a certain position define them or even the internet but that's not who you are. We are children of God now it's up to you if you choose to follow the world of demonic it is SO HARDDDDD!!!! I'm saying believe in the lord because he the holy spirit and God are going to come also just to let you know i would stop idolizing people because you shouldn't put your faith in a person so much to the point you don't even know who you are anymore because technically that's like you're selling your soul. The number one priority in this world shall be to praise God and yeah, a lot of people can say they believe in God, but will you still believe in him during times of crisis will you ask him to come in the situation according to pastor Joel Osteen or will you just give up faith completely. I think we should give God and Jesus our savior if we choose and I choose. for some of yall you think it's too late but it's not have faith lets love one another and spread the word so we can live eternal life not just life here. The government and the world is not I REAPEAT IS NOT OUR GOD OUR FATHER IS IN HEAVEN. Do not be dismayed do not be discouraged because God is with you, he will walk with you if you have faith like genuine faith in Jesus our savior. Yall have to remember mankind has always been evil but god been choose Jesus before mankind and when Jesus came on this earth as perfect as he was and still is people treated him wrong and evil for no reason at all why because he was preaching he was talking about his real father in heaven Jesus Christ or Jehovah didn't bow down to no man because no and was or still is better or stronger than my and our god in the sky. Yall need to wake up Jesus and God is real he is really real you're a fool if you think your self-made. The point is don't let this demonic world get into your head it's okay to have fun but make sure to still put our lord and savior first because honestly the world is getting disgusting and if we are wondering why all these bad things are happening it's because of humanity mankind and how they choose to treat each other. In conclusion just repent and believe in god and thank your lord Jesus Christ because the last days are coming you shouldn't wait until the last days to start praying and repenting I hope whoever wherever if you got to this part is reading this somewhere in the world i think have a blessed day and keep Jesus in their mind and heart above all and watch the truth come out In the precious and powerful forgiving above all wonderful name of Jesus amen.