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Things I Tell Myself
2 weeks ago · · Thoughts, · Explicit
How does he know how weak I am for him, and that I will never say no? Is my excitement to be in his life in any way that obvious? He will never be good to me, he doesn’t want to. Is anyone stalking me besides him? I know at least one very jealous girl who hated my supervising her around in my work. I know of a few guys who are very infatuated and in love with me for a lifetime, who may be stalking me or having groups of people stalk me. I just want to be left alone to love who I love. What is the big deal of me? I should be allowed to privately play and love who I want, without constant interruption, chaos, and being watched. Seriously, stop playing these games with me. I just want to be alone and quiet and have fun together. I don’t like your limelight—not this way. You shouldn’t have to expose everything negative you learn about a person to chase people away and keep them. You should be confident and sincere with people. If you love someone or care, love them, don’t shit on them over misunderstandings, or do nothing but judge them harshly. You’re a mean misguided person. I don’t know why I care for you so. It’s not fair to love the one who is mean to you while disregarding those that care for you. I wish love wasn’t blind or I wasn’t infatuated with strange and unusual. It causes people to show me their dangerous side, only so they can run away, because that side scares them. Why am I such an open person? If I were a mean bitch, I would not be happy because caring and loving are living and being mean is a cold dark existence. I think too much, or not enough, but I hardly care—and that’s the truth.