thank you for advice

I have few friends. I can't think of anyone I can ask for advice or atleast listen to my tiring stressful situation. Dear anyone, I going 30 and I am stuck. I know I'm not the only one. But does that mean I shouldn't feel this way? You see, I'm working in accounting, my second job. And I feel like it's not for me. But where will I go? Arts? Business? Arts will not pay the bills, mostly. Business, if I can't handle my current job, how can I lead a business. Though those successful businessmen are not really knowledgeable in accounting. Cus they have someone who do it for them. Anyway, I don't know where to go. It feels like I don't belong here. And I don't know where I belong. It so hard. My job is hard. My self is hard. It's having a hard time coping up with coworker. I don't kmow where to go. I don't know how to live. I don't what to do. I am so tired. Things are much harder for me, cus I'm not smart even I wanted to be so. Imagine, I'm the type of hardworking but foolish and clumpsy person. Can you picture how sad my real situation is? Do you know how it feels like to want to be good, to do good, but still fails. Others simply just use their minds to be better. But me, I have to do an extra effort just to be good enough.