My Timed Entry 1

I just feel like I’m drowning and dying inside. Have you ever felt like your life has no meaning? Well, that’s me right now. Nothing excites me, I’m constantly stressed and worried… I’m losing myself, I’m losing my energy, and I don’t want that. What can I do to solve this? To get out of this labyrinth? When is this ending? I just want to get out of this mess called life! I’m so tired. Is this what adulthood, what my whole life is supposed to be? It is not supposed to be life this, I am supposed to be enjoying my days, to live, to experience love, fear and altogether while I still can. I’m so afraid to die tomorrow and be crying in my last moments because I didn’t live the way I wanted to, but the way society, the world, my job tells me to. Am I not supposed to give meaning to my life? It’s just… horrible to feel this way. This burning, this headache. Is this going to end once? Or am I gonna die feeling like this? I hope I get to get out of this labyrinth