im hopelessly in love

i (f) found out I'm bi after realizing my feelings for my best friend. she just got single and ik she's straight.

but the messages and the way she calls me really fill up my heart.

i want to protect her, be with her and get to know her more

our mutual friends (only 2 people) knows about me liking her, and how it's not good for me. but I'm fucking okay with it. ik nothing can happen, so ill just sit back and like her till the day i die. if it means ill be with someone else, or watch her being with her future partner. its okay.

but thinking about it while i write.... i think i wont be okay for a some time. she wont like me in that way, and i understand. its just sad.

I'm just writing this just to pour out my feelings. haha/. imma sleep now

bye lovelies, have a good day :)