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2 months ago · Just venting, · Explicit
I don't feel safe here. Dsds back with the tones and attitudes like he's mad at the world. I asked him what was wrong he denied everything. Talk to me in that grouchy ass tone of his. I don't trust him at all in this shape. He's already barged in my room twice today already making me have to lock my door. He's miserable as hell. He was like this last time he yelled at me 10 million times. And he was also this the times he assaulted me. I had to sleep with a butcher I wrote about it on here before. Nobody gives a damn if I live or die. Hes only worried/concerned about bumming me of my legal meds because he stupidly eats all his to get drunk. Once my use is gone I'm treated as discarded soda can or candy bar wrapper....... AND HE CRIES AND BITCHES ABOUT "WORDS HURT" GIMME A BREAK HES CALLED ME EVERY NAME UNDER THE SUN THAT CHICKEN SHIT WHO'S TOO AFRAID CONFRONT THOSE WHO HES OFFENDED WITH... SO HE TAKES THAT RAGE ALL OUT ON ME.
I mean I can almost never have a good day him and mom are so miserable. Hes like a barnacle on a sea turtle. He's psychotic. He keeps an almost like switch blade knife close to him sharp enough to shave off arm hair. I'm afraid for my own safety and well-being here but nobody cares I got family to call who genuinely cares for my well being. So if my post's stop on this site in a long span of time here either he's killed me or I've offed my own self.
I have to say life's too short to go through hell because your own family is mental or a both an addict and psychotic. I wish I had a way out. Absolutely nobody would have though they all think we're bad people for thing's my dads done in the past. I just cannot stand my dads tone its almost like he'd gut and fillet me. He's truly psychotic. Idk I wish I could get the hell out of this hellhole. I don't have much motivation to keep on going honestly. Dad has to be the most miserable person on earth its comparable to my late ex uncle. God help me. I can't take much more. He's untalkable to. The bitterness here you could cut it with a knife. Mom acts like everythings magically ok. Dad didn't even give a fuck that I hit my toe against the door mom asked if I was ok. HE DIDN'T.
Mom tried to always change subject or divert attention when im talking about dad. He's mentally ill projecting misery on all of us. He will only sayi love you to the dog. He spoke of feeding me to the dogs before. I'm not kidding. I wish I could leave his sorry son of bitching leeching ass here and not come back. I need some way out.
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