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A little bit about my background.
I graduated 10 years ago, and immediately began working. I worked for three years at a toxic workplace (sometimes I had to sleep in the office and wake up the next morning to continue working without going home), which ruined my first job experience and led to depression and anxiety. I became so low in self-esteem that I stopped answering phone calls and locked myself in the house for three years, with no contact with friends and only my family. I then began preparing for competitive exams for a government job because I felt I was not good enough in my own field of art.. But sadly, after 10 attempts i failed and couldn't crack the exam.
Later in 2020, I decided to return to my own field of art, so I joined a studio. Because of my career gap, I joined the studio as a trainee despite having prior experience. Within a month, my trainer began humiliating me, and despite receiving positive feedback on a daily basis, he would submit my final weekly report as unsatisfactory without explanation because he wanted his relative who worked with me to look good in the eyes of supervisors. I quit that job after only a month because my depression symptoms returned.
After all of this, I decided that I needed to get out of my comfort zone and study for a master's degree abroad to gain international experience. I spent months searching, shortlisting, and applying to colleges before being accepted into a truly world-class university. I requested a visa. I was at my best at the time, but my visa was rejected months later:( I filed an appeal against the decision, but I have yet to receive a response after two months. I continued to take classes online and am now getting consistently high grades.
Now situation is that i will have to leave the study in this university and find a job here again which is making me so nervous and anxious about having the same experiences again. I keep on feeling i am not good enough.
i want to proceed further in my career but i am really scared. i don't know what to do
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What's your career? Why don't you find another job in your field and go with a company that seems to have positive feedback online (Staff and customers etc)? I also think you should try and work on your anxiety as this will assist you now and ongoing. Can you speak to a professional to best support you? If not, I'd say to try and pick the things you're scared of and either write down or say out loud to yourself (i prefer saying it), what are you scared of? Well if that scary thing happened what would you do? What are the other options?. I find that asking these questions and verbally answering, helps you to complete the thoughts rather than letting them just sit in your head and go in circles. If the visa gets denied again then that's outside your control. Worry about improving the things that are inside your control and that you can change. I hope that the visa comes through for you.
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