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Ok so. I suppose dad was full of it. like always. He was last night ILL BE GONE IN THE MORNING. hmm🤔 funny thing. He's still here.
I heard the phone conversation with my aunt and him in part. He's like oh well maybe another time. Then its well illet you know if I need you. He said he also thought he was gonna have a stroke about 5 am. Its probably because he's low on the drugs he abuses. He knows running out can be fatal. Yet its always a drunk binge once he gets them cry about it this repeat. Only the toxic mental emotional treatment is taking a toll more than anything. God did grant me some peace this morning I couldn't have done for myself. It remains though. dads the way he is and we can't get along unless I basically nod my head and agree and keep my mouth shut. I shouldn't have to do that or take mistreatment from him without apologies. He's too chicken to even look at a recording how aggressive he is drunk.
But what takes the cake not only did my aunt block my number undeservingly, I've never done anything to her, but shes willing to allow dad to stay with her BUT NOT ME. YET SHE LET MY THIEVING COUSIN AND HIS GIRLFRIEND STAY FOR 2 WEEK'S. AND THEY EVEN THOUGH HE BLAMED HER STOLE $150 FROM HER.
oh but me who never bothers nobody is turned away like I don't matter . My family totally sucks ☹️☹️😞😔.
Mom tells me I need therapy. Fine I won't deny it. But if dad wasn't abusive I in most part would be fine. Funny thing Imy dr did put in for me to see someone yet I never heard back. My Dr is an oddball too they are different every time you see them.
I guess idk anymore what to do. Of hadn't taken half my medication I probably could have actually sought help last night. But they'd just have blamed me for it.
Living with an abusive using manipulative drug addict is like walking on jagged glass and rocks barefoot.
But my aunt still shouldn't have had her arms open for the dad, the cause of the hell here, yet shut her doors for me.
I did nothing deserving of this treatment. Whatever God is your all's judges. Not me.
In not perfect but I wouldn't turn away family in time of emotional need 💔. If you wouldn't want it done to you DON'T DO IT TO OTHERS
and if you can't l handle being reciprocated the treatment you give out DONT DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.
Thanks to dad I can't even seek help yet because he's had his hands in my medication whivh is grounds for my dismissal
all because HE CAN'T TAKE CARE OF HIS OWN HE ABUSES IT
HOW IS THAT MY FAULT HE KNOWS THE CONSEQUENCES.
OMG
I so need away from here. Not that anybody cares. I hate having to suffer doubley for his stupid drug binges. Tripley emotion wise FML. I wish I had a way out
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