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I Never Know How To Start These

2 months ago · 2 · Breakup, +3


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You said I should walk away if you're holding me back.

I've got my coat. I'm putting on my shoes. Please stop yelling at me.

I'm doing what you asked, what you permitted me to do. You're saying such hurtful things, slicing open every scar.

I never needed your permission, I'm doing this for me. Tears chill my cheeks in the winter wind.

It was a test anyways. I affirm you're not bringing me down, then I'm the bad guy for leaving when you do. Red nose from the cold, cheeks follow suit with anger.

I'm doing this for me. I'm not looking back. I'm leaving my shame at the corner of your street.

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  • Novni Guest · 2 months ago

    If a small baby bird were to cry out in pain on seeing its momma bird brush it aside and gently caress and hold a new strange bird, would you turn to that upset poor baby bird that belonged to you and simply say, ‘let me do it! you’re just holding me back’, as you march off away from your baby bird not looking back in a proud way? Then why? Why? Why are you doing it to me?. . for simply crying out in my sadness and pain at what you’re doing.

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    • Novni Guest · 2 months ago

      MJ? This was never towards you, it was what I needed to do for me. And it's what you always said, to walk away if I needed to. I never wanted to, I just can't lose myself.

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