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2 months ago · · Need advise,
I need advice on a relationship. A little over a year ago I met this guy and we became pretty good friends and then a couple months into our friendship we hooked up. I really liked this guy back then but there were some other factors that made it difficult. My friend was dating his friend and they had a pretty bad falling out and she would make me feel bad about talking to him so eventually I decided it wasn’t worth it anymore. After that we were on and off friends and lost touch for a couple months. We recently got back in touch about two months ago and I’ve fallen really fast for this guy all over again. He makes me feel amazing and is genuinely the sweetest guy ever. However he isn’t really the type of guy to have a girlfriend so I don’t know if there is a future for our relationship to go anywhere. I think that I’m falling in love with this guy but when I think about my future it isn’t logical that it works out between us. We have a pretty large age gap and I’m still in college and I don’t know where I’m going to end up while he is settled into his life. When I think through logical scenarios I know it’ll never work out between us but he makes me so incredibly happy and I never want to lose him. I just don’t know if I should risk the heartbreak and continue on without caring what the future holds or just give up. But then I think about moving on from him and I feel like I’m already past the point of moving on without heartbreak. I’m just so confused because my heart is telling me one thing and my brain is telling me another. I also have a tendency to convince myself things are bad when I’m actually happy because people have hurt me in the past and I don’t want to get blindsided anymore so I don’t know if my brain is just telling me it’s not a good idea because it’s trying to shield me from getting hurt again. Sorry this is kind of all over the place my thoughts were jumping all around as I was writing but I just can’t sort through my feelings by myself and I need some advice