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2 months ago · · social anxiety, · Explicit
Manipulation. Gaslighting. Narcissism.
Both of my parents are narcissists.
Both of them gaslight and manipulate.
I don’t much talk to my dad anymore,
But my mom…
Everyday, I listen to her.
Even when they aren’t directed to me,
When I disagree with her.. she’s mad
When someone talks bad about her, she’s mad.
When someone doesn’t bow down to her… oh she’s mad.
She’s always right.
If she thinks you’re talking about her, you must be.
Don’t talk badly or she’ll cry and tell you to get out of her house.
BUT she can say all she wants… because she pays the bills.
“I’m sorry I’m a terrible mother…”
“Move to your dads then”
“Get a job then”
“Go to school”
“Clean up your room”
“They aren’t allowed over anymore”
“I’ll ground you”
She’ll only say those things when she’s mad.. I think she’s bipolar.
Obviously, she wants respect. WE ALL give her respect
But we can’t have an argument or a disagreement without her telling us to get out.
She’ll piece together things and find an answer she likes.
She’ll talk badly about you, but the moment you speak up… GET OUT
I PAY THE BILLS. I PUT THE ROOF OVER YOUR HEAD
SOMEONES GROUCHY TODAY
GET A JOB. YOU’RE OLD ENOUGH
I’m sorry I’m such a bad mom…
I could go on and on…
An alcoholic narc.
Manipulative and a gaslighter
We all are best buddies until she just snaps.
She called me, HER DAUGHTER “a rat bitch who can’t keep her mouth shut. Sits on her ass all day”
for informing my older brother she wants to kick him out..
This morning, she came into my room SCREAMING at me about how our dog is bleeding and dying and it’s my fault because I told her 2 weeks ago, he jumped off of my bed and hit his side on the door. “That can cause nasal trauma. You did it. Our dog is bleeding because of you.”
I didn’t hurt the dog. She’s the one not taking him to the vet.
“I’ll take him and I’ll prove you hurt him. Someone kicked him off of your bed”
At this point it was a screaming match, “you’ve punched the dog before, so maybe you did it..”
that really made her angry
She then tried acting sweet and said if it was an accident then it’s okay,
No mother. I didn’t hurt the dog.
“I PLAN ON MOVING. YOU CAN GO TO YOUR DADS”
I simply asked why she does that, every time she’s mad at me… “go to your dads”
“Do you not want me? Just tell me you don’t want me anymore. Dad doesn’t even know my Favourite colour. He couldn’t afford me.”
A part of me loves calling her out for her faults.
“I meant I’ll be moving and you can come with if you want. Pick the woods or the beach”
She makes me so angry.
I don’t want to be here anymore,
She’s even talking badly about me right now.
“Get a job!”
I’m too scared. I’m sorry.
“Move to your dads”
He makes me uncomfortable. Im sorry
“Go to school”
It made me want to end it all. Im sorry
“Clean up your room!”
It’s not messy. Just unorganized
“You sit on your ass all day!”
I do everything you ask. Im sorry
“I pay the bills!”
You have to.. that’s your responsibility
I try really hard, maybe she thinks it’s easy.
I don’t go off on her, I don’t ask for anything unless I need it, I don’t eat much or come out of my room.
Maybe if I did get a job itd be better…
I wont be graduating, when I turn 18, I know she’ll want to kick me out.
She makes me experience everything with her.
She uses me as a therapist.
“You’re my best friend. I can talk to you like a child”
She tells me EVERYTHING.
Her trauma. Her opinion on family. Work. How she wants to end it all, how my dads a piece of shit, how she knows she’s an alcoholic and feels bad but then switches up and tells us to get out if we don’t like it.
Right now, she’s yelling and trying to pull out the dishwasher from the counter.
I’m genuinely scared of her..
I just want out.
It’s so hard.
I know if I got a job, it wouldn’t even be enough to support myself.
Id probably end up living in a car if I got one.
Do you know any jobs that are easy for teenagers with social anxiety?