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when i look back on my early childhood, i reminisce on moments of innocence and joy. however, i can’t help but think of the insecurities i’ve felt my whole life. i’m not sure what trauma that i‘ve endorsed caused this feeling, it started so young and hasn’t ended. i figured it would start at my current age, i’m only 13 (going on 14), but i remember feeling worthless as young as 5 or 6 years old. whenever i look the mirror i feel such a deep sense of hatred for myself, i can’t stand to look at myself. nor can i look at myself for longer than 10 seconds without nitpicking every last thing about myself. i hate my extremely asymmetrical face, my big nose, and my crooked and thin lips. as for my body, i could go on and on. my hips aren’t wide enough, my waist is seemingly small, but without clothes it’s clear i have the same physique as a door, my stomach doesn’t fit into most of my pants unless they’re far too big, there’s other things i could say but im not sure if they’re allowed on here. i don’t understand why i can't just be pretty and skinny like all of my friends. everyone says “omg you’re so pretty,” “you look like a doll” “you’re so gorgeous” etc but i just can’t help but feel like all they do is pity me, what if they just think nobody else will compliment me? you may think, “oh, you’re just young. it’ll pass.” no, the insecurities i feel are severe. i look at a photo of myself and could cry for hours, i’ve started eating less and when i do i feel so much guilt. i’ve been obsessing over my looks and trying to get validation in all the wrong ways. i just wanna be happy. i just wanna love myself.
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You shouldn't love yourself, but you should accept yourself just the way you are. You are certainly telling the truth that you are obsessing over your looks which is silly because at 13 you are still growing and changing. Please talk to your parents about this and tell them you need to see a psychiatrist.
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