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what i hold
1 month ago · · Him, · Explicit
a part of me still loves him- the person he was before he met her
-but let me make one thing clear i will never stoop that low again
-i will never beg
- i got down basically on my knees and begged him to love me to stay -even after everything
-but he chose her and I don't hold any resentment over that
-what i hold is the fact that he was fucking her while telling me i was the only one he was talking to and telling me he loved me
- what i hold is the fact that he left without telling me anything
- i absolutely refuse to believe a person could act the way he did with me and have it all be an act at least in the beginning - -it is fucking impossible
- what i hold is that he made me graduate early and actually started to make plans to move in together this year for my college at the U
-what i hold is that he bought the apartment and she moved in with him- not me
- what i hold is that he looked me straight in the eyes and lied straight to my face
-and yet i still can't fully hold on to any of those things because we were never in a relationship were we.