My Timed Entry

I am still your pfp. I still see your posts on how everyone "left" you. But did we really? No, we didn't. You pushed us away. You stopped talking to me. Why? I thought you would forever be my tia. I thought you would be by my side until death. As I get older, I realize people are fucking fake. Your supposed to be family until we die. So why am I dead to you. Death has so many meanings to me now. I constantly feel hurt. Why does everyone leave. My stepmom, tia, grandma, uncle, friends. Like what the fuck. You preached about loyalty how did you fall off. How did a 14-year-old stay more fucking loyal then you. Loyalty goes a long way and all of you left. I feel the abandonment. You were there for me at my lowest, though my suicide attempts, when I was self-harming, when I had an eating disorder. Does that mean nothing to you? I just want my family back. I want my friends.